Okay, so you are unhappy and searching, for recognition, praise and love for yourself. Lets be honest here.. Why do you do the things you set out to do? What is your ultimate goal in this endeavour, let me tell you... You do it because you want people to see you for who you are, no matter how great or fortunate you are, you act like a little child non the less..
Nothing makes you happier than that one person you admire for some reason to acknowledge your efforts to comply to what you have been told all your life..
I can tell you right of the bat, without ever knowing you, that you do the things you do for reasons you don't understand just yet.. You are in desperate need of love, someone out there should see you for who you are, and even if you don't know, you still go out of your way to please or situate yourself to align with love, which means the person who recognizes you, for you... Contradictions, yes, infinitely..
At one point you have to realize why you do the things you do.. That time is now. reply to me, please!
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